“If I Ever Leave This World Alive” by Flogging Molly
WHY?
you know PERFECTLY well i never miss a show there. you knew PERFECTLY well i would be there. you couldn’t take her to the upscale and quiet bar right next door? i would be none the wiser and wouldn’t be up right now retyping this because a draft didn’t save the first time. yes, i had my own person there. i doubt you noticed nor cared. but really? stupid of me to believe those words that were so effortlessly tumbling out of your mouth that night not too long ago. you couldn’t even be bothered to introduce us to your choice of the month or even just wander over on your own and say a quick hello? honestly? i expected more out of you. you KNOW what i just went through with the other one. really? this just pains me because it seems you deliberately did it so i would get the point you don’t want me and for me to leave you alone. ignoring TWO of my texts and now this? i get your point. why cant any guys in my life tell me face to face that they think i’m really a piece of shit and ignore any comments made at a certain time…. i’m so tired of trying… i’m more sickened at what i was going to say until i saw your companion. i’m a real piece of work. so done. so tired of being awake but now sadly wide awake from my anger and resentment towards you. but mostly at myself…
this was one of my run songs yesterday. It came on right at the 7.5mile mark.
